It's been a weird season for me. I am in an intense emotional slump.
I started a business planning course last weekend, and was invited to a commercial real estate class. It messed me way up. I went in thinking I would find out how to scam one of these empty buildings for my workspace. But then the instructor started talking about investing and growing wealth. Totally knocked me for a loop.
I started thinking about the future. How I don't have any money to speak of. No husband. No assets. I have to prepare myself. Plus I have always wanted to create housing choices for creative people. I want a space for myself. I have always wanted a warehouse to live in with a creative space attached. This could happen. My head was swimming. I couldn't breathe. There were people in the room who had already bought properties and just wanted more information. There were also some very attractive age appropriate guys there, and I felt like a complete loser.
When I left I walked through a parkinglot that was full. I was the only one on foot going to catch a bus. I don't have a basic thing like a car. I am so far away from 'purchasing my first property'. It's mind numbing.
I thought about it all night. While eating my last can of soup. Could I own a rental property? Could I buy a warehouse and move in there? Or a condo? How could I do this with no car? Should I just shelf it till I get a job and a car? It would be better to be able to have money from property then use that to start the fashion business instead of trying to get loans for a fashion business that I have to worry about paying back.
A performance space, showroom, gallery gathering spot. But how will I find it with no car.
I have shit to work out.
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