So... I was getting low on food. I had cup of noodles. I had parmesean cheese. I had french dressing, and cream cheese, and some salsa. I had some mixed frozen veggies from the food bank. I ate this for days. My counselor took me to bixel street to get food at the community center. It was garbage. More fucking whole wheat pasta. I got a big can of chicken. I mixed cream cheese and mayo, mustard and relish and ate it with matza bread. That lasted a day. I was getting so fucking hungry. I had to hold on till the 4th. But it was a holiday. I noticed on the first my welfare payment didn't post. I got nervous. So on the 3rd I went to the office to check. The 2nd I would have gone but I got sidetracked with drama. Another post.
The worker told me they were keeping my money because of an overpayment. I was pissed because I needed to pay my phone bill and internet. She said I would get my food stamps on time. The 4th was a holiday so I didn't think I would get my stamps. I rode to the valley to get the aux cord from Kev for the dvd player. So I could watch movies when my internet was cut off. That took hours there and back. So I was like I will get them the next day. I go to the store and there are no food stamps. It's blazing hot outside too. So I had to schlep to the office to see what the fuck. The worker said there was nothing wrong with my case. She released the food stamps. It was so hot out I felt like dying. I had only the energy to go to the dollar general and grab something for the day. I got carbs and ice cream. I passed out.
Today is Friday. It was 102 degrees out. I walked outside about noon and came right back in. I got my paycheck so I paid my phone bill and internet. I was planning on going to Santa Monica on Monday to talk to Justina face to face since she never called me back. People don't listen to their voicemails on their work phone anymore. I needed to work, and the agency needed my second reference. Justina was it. But they called me anyway today with a full time permanent job. It's a scan clerk at a law firm downtown. Perfect. $500 a week. My whole life just shifted that quick. I start Monday. So I got a brand new wig. The one I bought 2 weeks ago, I thought it was too big and bushy so I tried to thin it out and it looks crazy now. I should have left it alone. It is just a mess. I got foundation and powder, a new lipstick. I have to do laundry tomorrow. I unfortunately started my period in this heat. I feel terrible. But I have to get groceries for my lunches next week.
I sang praise to God all day. Thank you! I won't let you down! I will stay focused and stick to the plan. My first check I will get my diet program going. I will not look back. The AP crew is planning the Seattle trip for August 16 through 19th. I will be able to afford to go! I am so happy. I can see my mom! I can see my dad too! I can invest in all of my businesses and be independent by October 30th if I work hard and focus.
I was thinking I should book my own night at the skiptown that is for underground films. Kinglsee will never do them. There are so many amazing films that have followings. I have to branch out. I think I will call it Quirk Show. Kwerk Sho. I need to do it. With this job I will be able to get my car. I will be able to elevate my wardrobe. I will be able to go to Bananas once a month. I will be able to go out on the weekends. I am so happy. I feel vindicated.
Yesterday I had this image of myself like a kitten stuffed in a sack and thrown in a river to drown.
Today
Kitty is out of the bag.
RARWR
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