Breathing

FINALLY!

I got paid and it was glorious!

I was overwhelmed with emotion. There was a wig store by my job, I went in and got the fluffiest wig I could find. They have the same one in blue which I think I might get. I like wearing blue at Christmas time.

I also FINALLY purchased the TLC weight loss plan! I have been waiting 2 years to get it and I finally did! I was so excited. I did my first full day and this morning I took the biggest crap I have ever taken in my entire life. I thought the toilet would clog from it it was so huge. PLUS I didn't crave sugar. I hope that continues! I went and got healthy food after work too. Salad for lunch. I am so grateful! I can't wait to really get deep into it. I have never felt so happy! I am so happy I can't even put it into words. I am praising GOD all day because I feel my life is changing for the best. I feel blessed. I want to be down 20 in four weeks. I should probably buy a scale. At my last weigh in the scale said 290. Which I don't really think was completely accurate. But we will go with that number. That means I have 140 to lose. 7 months on the program will do that for me. I will do everything in my power to reach my goal. I want my body back! I have been struggling for 25 years with my weight. I finally feel like I made a breakthrough. 

R is escalating.
I took a picture of my new hair and sent it to him. He said "you look like you are trying to get your bones jumped." He was going on and on about it and saying that I was HIS. He is confusing me! Does he want to date me or is he just playing around? He has a bunch of the qualities I want in a man, I just don't know what he is like emotionally. If he is stable and honest or not. He makes a lot of jokes, but I know why I do it. Why does he do it.

I have to go to Norwalk to get my voter registration paper to take to the post office to get my post office box. It was a nightmare trying to get it. Somehow when I take a lyft, my paypal account pays for it. Even though there isn't money in it. I will take lyft to the place and to work. The bus ride is too crazy. Once I get my PO box then I can start ordering my items off line. Building my looks and my life. Plus get sneakers to sell.

I AM SO EXCITED!