The fiasco with my GR payment messed up the entire month.
I have a phone that I pay for, and that has all the bells and whistles. But I keep a lifeline phone just in case. Like just in case money doesn't come and I can't pay my phone bill. I had one free phone for a couple of years. But then it stopped working. So I went out and got another one. Since I couldn't pay the bill on my main phone I had to take that number off my resumes, and put the free phone on. I told everyone to call me on this phone.
A temp agency told me to come in on Tuesday to sign up, and call them from in front of the building when I get there. Cool. I planned to go to the jewish food bank on Sunday to get food. They give you stuff you can make meals out of, eggs, meat and fresh veggies. But then I remembered it was a holiday weekend. No food on Sunday or Monday. Two more days of cup of noodles. Tuesday I have the interview so I can't go to the food bank then either.
Sunday evening I hear banging on my dining room wall. I hear screaming and a woman saying leave me alone! More banging. I get up to go in and listen more closely. He is beating her! I freeze. I call the police. I let them in the building and tell them what happened and scurry back to my place. I get home and break down crying. I wasn't sure why. It was stressful. I text a few people what was happening.
The next morning I go to call my cousin and my phone says my balance is too low to make this call. I can't text either. FUCK! Now my backup phone doesn't work! If anyone is trying to get in touch with me they can't. Job search halted till at least the 4th of June. This is humiliating! So I call the 611 on the phone to see what I can do. I guess they sent me a form I was supposed to fill out to the hollywood address so I could get free service all the time. I forgot to get my mail last time I was there so I didn't get the form and that's why this is happening. They told me to contact trueconnect, they deal with lifeline phones so I could possibly remedy the issue through them. I got to their website and fill out the form. There was a part where I had to upload proof of welfare. It took an hour to convert the file from pdf to jpg. Then when I was done turns out it will take at least 7 days for it to be available up to two weeks. Useless.
I'm planning for the interview tomorrow, and I go over the e mail because it's got the address in it. I notice it says I have to call them to let me in the building when I get there. I HAVE NO PHONE SERVICE because I have no money coming in. I could go and hope someone will let me use their phone to call, or cancel and schedule for next week. Which couldn't work in my favor. It makes me look undependable. I need food. I have to choose between food and a temp agency. Food is winning. I went to the website to check what documents I needed to bring with me. Then I saw they don't service my zipcode. But they do my old hollywood zipcode. My ID has my holllywood address on it. I get some mail there. So I spent a couple of hours looking for recent mail from there. I couldn't find anything past Feb 23rd. Hope that works. Or I will go hungry.
I can't cope with this situation. It's so complicated. I have a week to get through. I don't know how I will. I never want to be in this position ever again. I sat with my big book and wrote out everything I need to happen so I can change and how much everything will cost. I have to be stealthlike in my execution of the plan. Or I feel like this is the end of my life.
There was a video on youtube called 'faking normal' that basically said after 35 women are locked out of the workforce. Like if you aren't already deep in your career and you are changing careers, or looking for work it's harder for you to get work. Over 40 even harder, over 50 nearly impossible. For instance if on your resume it says you graduated college in 1976 YOU ARE TOAST! Luckily in that area mine says I graduated in 2014. But I have 10+ years of experience. It's more like 20+ but I scale it back. It's clear that I need to be able make money on my own. It's time. I have been in LA for 7 years, and have yet to have a decent job. I really don't think there ever will be a decent job. I'd be better off going to work at family dollar for $10.00 and investing in my on line businesses.
I file my taxes on the 4th, and hopefully I can get the money in 10 days or less so I can move forward.
enough is enough
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