Around and around

I was able to get a four day gig at the convention center which will get me all of $170. Ro offered to pay for my re sellers licence. I said no, but now I am rethinking the offer. The $170 will be enough for me to get two pairs to sell. If I do this correctly by the end of the month (when it's starting to get chilly out) I could have a car. I have to be stealthlike about this. 

I forced myself to finish my burgundy crochet wig. It turned out better than the purple. I got a better handle on the process. I think the next one with the proper perm rods will turn out more afrolike the way I want it. This one looks like the wigs I used to make in Fort Lauderdale. Really sexy full with big curls. I got a little annoyed because I don't have a car, a controlled environment to travel in. So my hair was getting blown around. I imagined what it would be like to create an outfit, put on my leopard sandals; some cute jewelery and do my make up and wear the new wig. I imagine once my money starts flowing I will be overcome with creativity and making outfits left and right. Then I can go out even if it's by myself and have a nice dinner and look stunning. I would prefer being out with my dream guy tho.

I left my number on his meetup page. Nothing. I think he barely goes to his facebook. If he does I doubt he has messenger. I don't know how to get his attention. It hurts a little. I think about him every day. I want the next time he sees me to be the day he makes a move. 

Still reading stories. They are all good in their own ways. There are elements that always appear.

A creepy guy bothers me and the love interest saves me
love interest has no desire for a relationship
love interest has a bothersome ex
love interest screws up BAD and we nearly break up

This new one I get roped in by my high school crush after graduation at a party to pretend to be his girlfriend so he doesn't have to date the school piranha. His parents like me a lot so we keep up the ruse. He starts to fall hard for me, but can't own up to it because of some 'dark secret in his past'. I step up because I fall for him as well and tell him how I feel; but he shuts me down saying this was fake. I am ruint of course. But it doesn't help we are going to the same college in the fall. My best friend is dating his best friend, so it gets weird. He is pining away for me at college and I am shutting him out at every turn. He's texting and calling and I am ignoring. There are only two chapters left so I can't imagine I will learn anything or any reconciliation in two chapters. So I am going to be left hanging again. 

One of my other stories the one where my lover gets on a knee and I didn't get to answer before the story ended; continued. I got to say yes. But he was offered a job in new york and I was offered one in Milan. I decided to go to new york with him. Our wedding pictures on the beach were gorgeous.

Another story I was someone who worked at home reading manuscripts. I am hopelessly single. All of my friends are booed up and I am the only one who isn't. Again enter fake relationship. I meet him having coffee. I invite him on a weekend trip with my friends. It goes wonderfully. But before I  met him I went to a clinic to get artificially inseminated. It would turn out to be effective. He didn't want children. When I told him he left me. But then realized his feelings about children changed with his feelings for me. So he comes back and we marry. I have the baby and we are great. She is a pistol too. We get pregnant with twins. But that's where the story ended. Before the twins arrival. I could have gone on and on with this story. Raising the kids, and growing old together. 

These stories bring up all sorts of emotions that I have been avoiding forever. 

Ugh.