Corner turned then crashed and burned

Saturday night is usually the night he will come over. 

Well watch shows he hasn't seen, eat snacks and cuddle.

I feel like I love him because he's better and better looking every time I see him.

This last weekend it was really good. 

I love his body so much. He kind of reminds me of this African statue my parents had of a warrior standing with a spear. He had a leaf over his junk.

Except for the low haircut and lack of spear and leaf he looks like this warrior. He poses by the side of my bed looking down at me. I feel shivers because he's so gorgeous. I can't believe my luck to be with someone this gorgeous. He tells me to take off everything. I do what he says.

Before I can catch my breath he has slung me sideways on the bed and he's between my legs. He's mine.

I'm devoured
I can't breathe
I am finally feeling him
Waves of passion are radiating from him
His vocals say how much he's enjoying me

After I felt like a corner had been turned
Happy inside

All week I thought of him.
We spoke on the phone every other day.
We said we couldn't wait to see each other

It's the Christmas season and he owns a business that does retail. His hours were getting longer and longer the closer to Christmas they got.

We planned for him to come over Christmas eve and sleep over then we'd wake up Christmas morning together.

I'd cook lots of food I'd be able to warm up, bought Champagne and got excited.

And nothing

I expected the shop would be open late.
But he got home and collapsed.
I text 'Are you dead?'
He said 'Almost'.

That was all I heard till 1pm Christmas day.

I text this morning 'what time coming over'
He says 'not sure.'

I call and he's at work
On Christmas day
He still has work to do.

His nephew from Oakland is in town so he wants to say hello to him.

Then after he will see me.

He's leaving the shop around 3.

so maybe by the normal time 10pm he'll be here.

We'll see

3 weeks down 3 to go

So I got to the job and it was OVERWHELMING!

You know that cartoon factory music you hear on bugs bunny? That's what it's like in the morning.

I wasn't used to standing for long periods of time. My feet hurt like I was going to be crippled for life. I wanted to cry a few times. It hurt so bad I didn't know if I could continue. I saw my plans going up in flames because of the pain. I was trying everything to keep going. But now three weeks in, I am okay.

Of course the supervisors noticed how slow I was moving and called me into the office about it. I just said I was in pain. I had to get used to it.

I am not working near as many hours as I originally thought.

I fucked up my first week and forgot to submit my hours. So they won't be paid till the end of the month. So my first check was small. Enough to pay the bills but not to buy presents. Or to get my apartment the way I want it. 

Today I was feeling okay. I'll make it to end.

I just have to be smart.